Last Night Made Me Happy

Hello my fellow mates! How are you all?

Past one month I have been going through many emotional phases, more likely a “confusing phase”. I am not able to figure out relationship status, my work life just started, and everything around me is now all so different. No one knows the things that have been running on my mind since all this started. I just feel lost and sometimes there is no reason to it. But now I am not able to handle this whole confusion, so last night when my friend invited me to her place for a sleepover, I just went and didn’t think twice (I am usually the person who’d rather stay home).

Last night was what I needed. I think I need many such nights! It began with my office friend (Let’s call him Rohit) accompanying me to the apartment since he also lived there. We walked all the way to the apartments which is about 4kms and talked all the way mocking and irritating each other. I was just having fun and once we reached I found my friend and I went with her. We chilled, dressed up and then went out to grab some drinks and oh my god we got so high on alcohol! I was high, happy, wasn’t using my phone and just having fun with my friend (say, Rinku) talking to her about everything! After a while of talking and being high we decided to leave and came back to the apartments. On the way, we were having so much fun on the roads and it felt so free! I felt this way after so long! There was no one questioning me or judging me.

Later on, I decided to meet Rohit around 12 at night and we decided to go on a walk while he gets his cigarette. We walked so much and just kept talking all the way. Our perspectives about everything is so different so we end up debating all the time but even then it all felt so good, so peaceful. I was just walking with a guy at 12 AM and there was no one telling anything to me. I hadn’t gotten my phone so I just cut the whole messaging/calls for a while because for a while I didn’t want anyone to talk to me. I was feeling so calm and happy after so long. This is one of the nights that I was really happy even though nothing special happened. I was just with my friends, chilling and talking to them but I still felt so relaxed and had no one questioning me about anything.

Sometimes, we all get so held up in our lives that we forget to live. We tend to keep others happy but forget our own happiness and peace of mind. It is very good to keep others in your life happy and make them satisfied but not to a point that you feel suffocated. Sometimes, we all need a break, we all need to get away from everyone, even the close ones just to be able to rejuvenate yourself. First, we should ensure that we are happy and in peace to be able to genuinely keep others happy. Try it out, you’ll feel better. Trust me!

Your MysteriousWoman, xoxo

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

          Hello everyone! How are all of you ? ❤ I hope you are all doing well and are happy with your life. It’s just a random gloomy day today, and while sipping my hot coffee, I decided on writing this post. It’s such a stress buster, I swear! I mean the coffee, haha 😀

 As I mentioned that it is a random gloomy day, I think my brain along with my heart just decided in being on a “I am sad but I don’t know why” mood. It is very common,right? I mean c’mon, I am sure I am not the only one who gets such moods once in a while! We’ve all been there and I know how it feels as well. It’s just a phase of life, just like any other phase of our lives! Although being on these moods is very common, the duration probably varies from person to person which is why people tend to think of this phase to be “abnormal” or “weird“. 

    There are many times when I do feel like staying alone,away from human contact, that includes my best friends, boyfriend and also my family. It doesn’t mean that I am angry at them or that I am hiding anything from them. It basically just means that sometimes I need some time off from everyone because sometimes we all need our alone time, we all need our own time to be quiet and lost in our thoughts, or even just stare at the wall while just quietly sitting in our room. 

   Sometimes, everyone goes through that phase where you are just sad but you don’t know why and you don’t seem to find a reason as well. Maybe it’s just the weather, a tiring day, or it could be any random, senseless reason at all! There have been times when I have cried without knowing why!! But according to me , this is a good thing. While you cry, you are letting go of some sort of pain within yourself through tears and it is not stupid at all! Instead it’s relaxing! It’s a form of relaxing your mind and your heart because once you cry, don’t you feel a little calmed down? You’d be lying, if you say no! haha. 

          All I am trying to say is that, people need to understand that it is totally okay to not be okay at times! It is okay, and totally normal to not want to spend time with your friends, partner, or family at times! Sometimes, everything will not have a reason and cannot be explained and hence it seems weird to others. But hey, not everything in this universe is explainable, right? If anyone is quiet it doesn’t mean that they are depressed and also, if they speak a lot , it doesn’t conclude that they are really happy in their life. This is just what is taught to us, but we need to get out of such perceptions. Every mood, every phase, every behavior totally varies on each individual and it cannot be generalized. It would wrong to do so. Sometimes, just let others be alone. Sometimes, if you want to stay alone, you have all the rights to stay so and no one can make you feel weird about it. After all, it’s your life and you know best on how to keep yourself happy. So stay away from judgments, and just live your life however you want to! 🙂

   I hope this post helped you in some way and at least understood that “wanting to be alone at times” is not a weird thing and it is just a phase of life, actually more like, another type of mood, just like being happy, sad or angry! 

Your MysteryWoman, xoxo!