Heartbreak sucks!
That feeling of your heart aching is something that can never be explained unless experienced by another. And even then, each person’s heart ache is different from the other so we never really understand the depth of the heart ache one is experiencing no matter how much we say “I understand“.
We all go through heart breaks and the heart aches that follow after that. For some reason, I have been particularly wondering today as to why that pain is so brutal. Something which cannot be seen, described in words or shown in the form of xrays. Maybe if it could be, it would feel much better as there would at least be substantial evidence for it.
Having dealt with heart breaks multiple times and felt my heart ache each time, I can tell you one thing, it never gets “easier” with experience because like I said, each heart ache is different with each experience. You can never just “get used to heart aches” because it breaks you into a thousand pieces each time and you never fully recover from it. Deep down your heart and soul you still remember that feeling, and everytime you remember it, your heart aches again, only difference being that the impact is much lesser due to the time that has passed. Yeah, time is a funny thing and is really the only true medication to be able to move on.
Why does heart ache hurt so much? I mean at that moment we feel absolutely hopeless and as though we can never overcome it. It all seems impossible and like it is the end of our happiness and yet somehow we do get over it with time even though not fully, but it’s still better than feeling like a person whose soul was taken away. I truly wish we could forget a person when they decide that they no more want us and avoid the whole heart ache situation, or be able to reset our heart when a loved one decides to go away. Unfortunately, that’s not possible. Personally, I would rather have my memories of that person erased than suffering through that pain, which is worse.
The sinking feeling of my heart each time a person who I love hurts it, those sleepless nights, the lack of energy towards self care, faking it to your loved ones, the guilt of giving the other person the authority to hurt you, the regret of giving too much too soon, or need to punish oneself by never falling in love again so as to never go through it again, sucks.
Heart break sucks, heart ache is worse! But time is a pill that will help the pain reduce, if not take it away completely atleast until we get used to the feeling of numbness.
Yours MysteriousWoman, xoxo